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The Dreamers

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”Yes, I’m drunk, and you’re beautiful. And tomorrow morning, I’ll be sober, but you’ll still be beautiful” – The Dreamers (2003)

September 13th, 2016

Everyone has already started college, but for me was still the end of the summer. I’ve just decided that I was not going to college this fall, and it was both scary and exciting. I had so many ideas on my mind, so many things I wanted to do, and going to college and sitting there 6 hours per day wasn’t one of them.

My friend Maria and I decided to do a photoshoot since neither of us had college. We ate noodles and sushi in the middle of the street, while we talked about old fashion muses.

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The good thing about shooting with Maria is that you can strike any pose and she won’t think it’s weird, we kind of have the same mind.

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We kept taking picture after picture, walking around the park, talking about street fashion through decades… We love to talk about fashion and things that we love, and it’s funny because we only talk about these things to each other.

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And lastly it was golden hour and the sun looked beautiful. I remember telling Maria, ”Put on your glasses and walk, the sun looks beautiful behind you.” And she did, and it was the intro for my video.

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Maria took some photos of me with one of my favorite books, Lolita from Vladimir Nabokov, it’s a classic.

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Film For Her ⋆ Volume II ⋆

 ⋆NONE OF THE PHOTOS HAVE BEEN EDITED, click here to see volume I⋆ 

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⋆PHOTOS IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER⋆

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My friends Lucia and Aige. Early-mid July.

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July 22nd, my friend Inés and I went to a lake in Collserola. She is rolling a cigarette. 

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July 26th, the first photo is a very famous Catalan restaurant called “Els Quatre Gats” where I ate that day, and then I went to see the movie Dunkirk in 70mm. God bless Cillian Murphy. 

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Early August. Maria and I went to Montjuïc and did a photo shoot, click here to see it.  

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Photos of when my mom, two of my siblings, my dog and I went to the Pyrenees. And you can see in the photo that my eyes are super sensitive and they go all red and puffy very easily.

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Me by Maria. Another photoshoot we did in her house, click here to see the photos. 

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These photos were taken the day after the terrorist attack in Barcelona, my mum and I went to Las Ramblas to see all the memorials, this was one of them. 

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Tere has super sensitive eyes part 2. I went back to Ireland from the 23rd of August until the 30th. Ireland will always have a piece of my heart. These photos were taken in Achill Island, specifically in Keem Bay. The first photo is my favorite. 

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Some photos I took while walking my dog one Summer afternoon. I’m so fucking blessed to be able to walk my dog every single day in this beautiful place. 

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Early September. Freya came to Barcelona and we did some vintage shopping and then we sat down in el Parc de la Ciutadella and talked for hours. 

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September 7th, celebrating my friend Maria’s 19th birthday. 

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September 11th, my mum’s birthday. You can see my mum opening up her present while my dog sleeps and you can see my brother Dani talking and smoking. 

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Mid-September, I hung out with two girls from Ibiza who I met through Instagram.

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September 27th, a wild Freya and Tere having the time of their lives in The Rolling Stones concert, click here to see the blog post about the concert.

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I love this kind of photos. It’s all dark but you can see some light. A photo of a restroom in a restaurant in Barcelona.

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October 1st, a day were Catalonia was going through a hard time. I went to the Andy Warhol exhibition. It also my Saint’s day. 

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The Rolling Stones Concert

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Wednesday, September 27th, 2017

Ever since I was a kid I’ve been obsessed with Mick Jagger and David Bowie. Way before I knew they had an affair (some people say it’s true some people say it’s a legend, oh well). I’ve always liked them because of their style, mindset and all the fucking amazing interviews they’ve done, and well, of course, their music.

Sadly I couldn’t get the chance to see Bowie in concert, but my friends, I saw The Rolling Stones.

I bought the tickets on May, check between the minutes 1:30-2:30 of this video to see the whole process of me buying the tickets and me crying after because of it.

Guys, I can’t tell you enough how excited I was because of this. Seeing the Rolling Stones live was on my bucket list since I was a kid!

When Freya came to visit me at the beginning of September I told her I had an extra ticket and we started talking about how we both love the Rolling Stones and seeing them live has always been a dream for us.

Fast forward to a week before the concert I was talking with Freya and this came up

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She stayed two nights in my house and we had the time of our lives.

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⋆A NIGHT I WILL NEVER FORGET⋆

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September Rewind

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– I’m With The Band: Freya told me I would love this book, and I did! Pamela lived her life in a freeway most people would be envious of.

 

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– The Rolling Stones Concert: Okay, where should I start with this one? A DREAM COME TRUE! I’m going to do a separate post talking about this concert.

– Meeting Freya: The (positive) power of social media

Shoutout to Abby for this comment that made me discover her! 

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– Winter is coming: But not really, global warming is coming! It’s between 20º-25º here, but since it’s sunny it feels warmer. Autumn is coming late and that’s making it very difficult for me to dress.

 

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S O N G S

B L O G  P O S T S

– Antisocial Diaries:  It’s not the first time Emma has talked about her struggle with social media, and every time she talks about it it makes me think about my relationship with social media. Thankfully I’ve never been one to really care about looking cool or beautiful for others. I’ve posted videos without makeup, I’m not afraid to say what I think or show what I like, but it’s true that at the end of the day social media has taken over the world, and the more followers you have the more people will like you.

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– The Most Life-Changing Lessons I Learned in 22 Years: I always re-watch her videos because this girl is truly amazing, I could listen her talk for hours.

 

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– Kielh’s Avocado Eye Cream: I have super puffy eyes naturally and there’s nothing I can do really, but this eye cream makes my eyes look at least more awake.

– New Things In My Room: I love changing things up in my room from time to time.

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– Last Month of Freedom: Yep, my gap year has come to an end and I’m starting uni. I’m an adult man.

– Catalan Referendum: A lot of you have been asking me what my political view is in this situation and, to be honest, I’m not comfortable enough to share this online. It’s been a hard week and this is just the beginning.

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Un Ange Est Mort

(listen to this while reading)

Hey, remember me? Yeah, I’m not dead.

I’ve been getting so many questions asking me where the fuck have I been and why I stopped posting on my blog and youtube channel, and the answer to that my friend is that I don’t have an answer. I started this blog nearly a year ago when I started my gap year, still trying to figure out my future about uni, money, LIFE IN GENERAL, and now, nearly a year after, I still have no clue.

I’ve wanted to delete this website for a while… and also delete my Youtube channel… and my Instagram, Tumblr, Twitter… basically I wanted to disappear from social media. Since my following on social media has increased so much, I had the pressure to post things once a week or just update what I’m doing because if I didn’t people would ask me if I’m okay, but I’m pretty sure no one wants to know if I’m having a mental breakdown or if I’m hanging out with my friends.

I don’t want to leave this blog or my Youtube channel, but I’m only going to post when I have something to post, not because I feel like I have to.

And don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere.

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Heart To Heart

Dear lovely readers,

When I did the blog post “But I’m Not Anorexic”   I was very scared to post it. I’m not good at being vulnerable and letting people know what’s going on in my life but after receiving a lot of messages from you on daily basis telling me that you also have eating problems, or that your friend is going through a bad time, I thought I needed to do a little heart to heart.

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My Mental Health

I started having anxiety when my parents separated. I didn’t know what it was but every time I was sad or nervous I would get this weird ache in my chest and my whole body would collapse. It wasn’t until a year after when I had my first panic attack on the bathroom floor of my Irish host family that I knew something was wrong.

When my parents told me they were taking some time apart I didn’t really get it. I grew up in a very Catholic environment, it wasn’t something that happened every day around me. I moved with my mom, and well let’s just say that my dad got out of the picture. And it wasn’t until two years later, with a lot of family drama and traumatic experiences, that my parents decided to get a divorce. My 4 siblings and I had to be in the same room as them when they signed the papers. We had to witness my mom shouting at my dad while he laughed and other things that I really wish I could forget. The day after that I had to go to school like nothing ever happened. Hell, I had to go to school every single day even if my fucking world was falling apart.

My depression, anxiety and eating disorder all started at different times, but they all joined together for about a year and a half. It wasn’t a great time. I really feel like I lost a huge part of my youth to that.

I didn’t complain about moving from my childhood home to a little flat 2 hours away from my school. I didn’t complain when I had to catch 2 trains to go to school every single morning and afternoon. I didn’t complain about having to go for a year to another country by myself. I didn’t complain when my parents decided to give their marriage another try and move in together again without even consulting their kids because I was the only one living at home since all my other siblings are much older than me. I was the one who had to witness my mom screaming at my dad for cheating, and him calling her a crazy maniac bitch. I was the one who had to suffer my mom’s depression and anger. I was the one who had to work or steal to buy things for myself. I never once complained about how other people who were in my life treated me like shit or used me because like they say, that is all my fault.

Having suicidal thoughts or hurting myself was something I did on daily basis when I was 15-16. I still have scars that proof that even though I may seem weak I’m strong as hell.

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Eating Disorder

I think I’m at a point in my life where I can talk about this without feeling triggered. I started having eating problems when I was 14, and it wasn’t till I was 17 that I realized that I needed to change my mindset or otherwise I would end up killing myself.

I’ve never taken pictures of my naked body before. Before every time I had to take a shower,  I would stare in front of the mirror and start crying, or take my clothes off and jump straight into the shower avoiding the mirror, and when days were really bad I would shower with clothes on to avoid looking at my body.

Thinking back to all the things I did to myself in order to look “beautiful” makes me pretty sad because I’ve been my worst enemy for many years, and if I could do anything for my teenage self I would give her a hug, because she sure as hell needed one and also because she never listened to anyone so giving her advice would be stupid.

Starving myself or binge eating was never the solution, but of course, I didn’t know that at that time.

Now I’m healthy. I still have some slips here and there but I can actually sit down and enjoy a meal without feeling guilty. I actually like my body and myself. I love my mind and I’m thankful for having a healthy body.

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Feeling Lonely

I’ve never had a constant group of friends. I’ve had friends that I’ve known since I was 5 and friends who I’ve been through a lot of shit together (aka my sophomore year of high school) but I’ve never had a person who I could always rely on for several years.

I like being with people. I love going out and meeting new people, but I hate what comes after. I’m not good with intimacy or being vulnerable. I’m not good with feelings, or talking about them, even though I would love to! I’m sensible, I’m an empath and I cry easily, it’s not like I’m a robot without feelings.

Late last year I met a boy. Every single time a boy showed interest in me or asked me out I would turn them down because like I said, I’m not good with relationships of any kind. But I fell hard for this boy, hard and fast. We met on a Friday night in one of my favorite spots of Barcelona. I was sitting in the middle of the street (at 11 pm, don’t do that kids) writing in my journal and listening to music, when this boy came, sat next to me, lit a cigarette and then started smoking it without saying a word. We sat there, two complete strangers, for about five minutes till I finally asked him what the hell was he doing, and he said that he was quitting smoking and that the only occasion he could smoke was on social gatherings, so basically he made an excuse to himself for smoking by sitting next to me. I laughed and smiled to myself because that’s something my sister would say. We talked for a bit and he invited me to a party and even though I said no he kept talking to me. He asked for my number and even though I said no he walked me to the metro station. He said see you soon and left with a smile on his face. And while he was walking away he lit another cigarette. For the next three Friday’s he would be there, in the same spot we met, smoking a cigarette waiting for me. It didn’t take long for us to start liking each other, but sadly, it didn’t end up well.

I know you probably don’t want to hear a love story and a heartbreak so don’t worry I’m not going to talk about it.

I really learned a lot from that. You can be with a group of friends hanging out, or with your boyfriend, or having dinner with your family, but when all of that is gone you’re left with your thoughts and worries. Don’t try to build yourself around other people because at the end of the day you’re left all alone.

 

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August Rewind

What a month. When August comes around every resident from Barcelona tends to get away from the city, it’s the more touristy month of the year. Spain is one of the top 10 countries of tourism, and Barcelona is number one in Spain so you can imagine how packed the city is around this time.

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– #GIRLBOSS: Okay, I LOVE THIS BOOK. The reason why it took me so long to read it was because I always saw beauty gurus with this book on their tables or Instagrams and I thought if they like it, I won’t. But since I want to start a vintage shop I was looking for some advice and I ended up reading this book, AMAZING!

– The Messy Heads Issue 3: I don’t know if this is my favorite one, it sure is the more nostalgic one. Emma’s story at the beginning is beautiful.

 

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– Photoshoots: I’ve been doing a lot of photoshoots this month, you can check two of them here and here.  And I have some exciting things that will start happening at the end of the year… it has something to do with modeling 😉

 

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– Bowie Baret: Another addition to my hat collection. I’ve been a Bowie fan since I can remember, another tribute to him.

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– Bikini: This has been my favorite bikini combo this year. The top is from Oysho and the bottoms are from Motel

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– Kurt Cobain Sunglasses: I have them in pink and white, they make any outfit look retro.

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V I D E O S

– La Niña Morada: If you don’t know this YouTuber she is an amazing latina living in LA who makes groovy thrift hauls and short films.

 

– Buzzfeed Unsolved: Fun fact, when I was choosing my “future”, aka when school forces you to choose something, one of my future options was criminology.

– Claire Michelle: Not one, but two amazing videos. Just lay in your bed and listen to her talk about her life and how she is living her dream life.

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– Books: I bought a LOT of books and I was thinking I should do a book haul maybe? Should I do a blog post or video?

– Meditation Pants: I bought some trousers from Princess Polly because everyone is always talking about them, and well, the quality sucks, but the trousers are beautiful but not worth the price.

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– Star Sky Night Lamp: Let me tell you a story. When I was 5 I wanted to be an astronomer, it has always been my dream since I was a kid to be an astronomer. I bought stars that you would stick to your wall and they would shine at night. I would play my mixtape of all Bowie’s songs (yes, I used a walkman) and I would drift to sleep looking at the stars in my ceiling and wall while listening to Bowie talk about a Grand Control trying to talk with Major Tom. Now I’ve bought a night lamp that illuminates stars in a lot of different colors, but I also play Bowie, some things never change.

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– Cerdanya: I went to the Pyrenees for 4 days, here’s the video if you want to see it.

 

– Ireland: As I’m writing this blog post I’m still wearing my airport clothes and have my suitcase at my door. I’m going to upload the video soon I promise, and I’m also thinking about doing a blog post about this trip, would you like to see that?

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